Blessed

I need to start out by saying I'm not writing this to brag about my life, nor for sympathy. I'm just writing it because it makes me feel better about getting what I feel out some how. As of late I have been experiencing a few trials. I know it's been almost 9 months but I'm missing my grandpa like CRAZY!!! I've had relatives pass away that I've been close to, but my grandpa was so special. I was the twinkle in his eye, his little princess. Even without knowing our relationship people have said they could tell that we had something special. At his funeral my sister in law said "You were his princess." Never telling her that myself or anyone else for that matter, you can only imagine how much love we have for each other. No other man has treated me with that much love and singled it out for strangers to know. He is so special to me. It's really hard to think that Berklee wont get to have him as she is growing up but she does have other special Papa's that love her like mine loved me. I've had quite a few reminders the past little while that he is here and definately watching over my little family. I know that is just a little trial and everyone goes throught the death process but it just adds to everything else that I've been dealing with. I have to stop myself and think of how blessed I really am. I know a few people that are very special to me that are going through something that I know I could NEVER handle! So my trials may be small but they are big to me. I'm really struggling, some days of course are better than others. In fact most days are better but I just get the one day every so often that I just want to breakdown and just cry. That's when I stop and think about what a loving Heavenly Father I have. I know that he knows exactly how I'm feeling and what I'm going through. I know that he is carrying me along on my bad days and even on some of my days that I would say are "good." I know he knows that everything is going to be okay and that I can handle all of this. I don't know why but for whatever reason, when it rains, it POURS in my life! Everything happens at once I have just a tiny glimpse of light to keep me going. Maybe more than just one tiny glimpse because why? I AM BLESSED. I seriously have the cutest little girl anyone could ask for. She is my sunshine! I have my wonderful husband who is always there and loves me. I have family members that tell me how special I am on a daily basis and I don't think they even know how much that helps me on a "good" day.I have some of the best friends. Some particular ones that mean the world to me and help me so much.Last but not least I know that my reedeemer lives. That helps me pull through all of this big huge dumping that I've been given lately. I am so complete just knowing that sentence. I know all of these will end sometime and other trials will come along. But as for right now my life has been BLESSED with hard things that I will overcome. I can do hard things...